Thanks all for taking the time. I think I am depressed, but it seems different than depressions of the past - much more aggravated or irritable. I did force myself to take a shower, I made it to get my kids, I called my Dad to take on soccer duty and now I'm going to take some benadryl and lay down - pray a bit and focus on having faith that actually getting appropriate meds might make a difference like it has for you, MiddlePath. It helps me so much to know there are people out there who understand.