I actually do get somewhat excited sometimes, and it always makes me feel like a hypocrite, so maybe timing will be important. But much of the time I feel almost nothing.

The thing about the meds is I'm really happy to have found some stability. Generally when I drink or stop taking them, my life starts to turn sour. I mention sexual side effects often to my doctor and she claims that I may be able to find different medications that both do their job and don't have side effects, but doesn't suggest playing with my them until I get out of school and my life gets more stable. I'm always tempted to insist that I try going off certain meds, but fear that I might insult her by going against her opinion. She's also been right about most of the things she told me, so I trust her judgement as a doctor.

In any case I really appreciate your reply. It's nice to be able to say whatever I need to and get people's perspective.