I don't see a reason not to. I'm worthless, empty, alone. And I'm just tired of this. Tired of being scared of everything. If I feel like doing something then I should just do it. I'm sick of myself. I hate myself. I'm tired of not knowing who I am. I'm tired of never sticking with anything, and never trying very hard to get better, because I'm too scared to do what it takes to get better. I'm sick of being scared and fragile and weak. It's very tempting to let myself get bad again. I know that I easily could if I slipped just a little bit. I've been doing better the past few days, but the urge is there, the darkness is always there, and I could let it take over again. I'm probably going to. No reason to get better. If no one loves me when I'm at my worst, then why should I want to get better? Just so people can love the happy version of me, whoever that is? Well, this is me, this is all of me amplified. I just want this to be enough for someone.