Made it to my eval without getting hospitalize along the way, go me!

Official dx - Bipolar II (which I figured). She put me on celexa and abilify. No mood stabilizer for now, she hopes the AP will keep hypomania at bay alone. Unfortunately I cannot continue the abilify unless she continues to give me free samples because it is $638 A MONTH until I reach my deductible!!! so i'm not sure how that's going to go. She mentioned another AP I could try...started with an L...litudol or something like that.

I still feel depressed, but I feel a bit more hopeful. I was really scared she was going to send me inpatient or try to push partial or something but she didn't. And she treated me like a human being - she spent 45 minutes listening to me and my concerns. So rare in a pdoc in my experience! I'm sure the next appt will be just the standard 10 minute check-in, but it's ok.

I threw out all the box cutters in the house - told hubby to keep the one he uses for work hidden until this episode passes.

I don't feel better yet but I feel confident that i COULD feel better and I think I'm ready to fight again. It feels really good to have someone on my side.

Thanks to everyone for their support on this forum! You have all gotten me through the roughest times during this relapse. I hope now to be back on the road to recovery, or at least management.

Just have to make sure I convince myself the meds are necessary - I'm still not committed to the idea that i might need them for the rest of my life!

Took the day off work tomorrow just for the hell of it. I need a day away from my crazy coworkers and the stress of the lesson plans and IEPs. Hope by Monday I will be a little better.