Hey. I understand that you must really not feel comfortable going out... When I'm feeling depressed it is the last thing I want to do. When I feel really anxious around people then the last thing I want to do is spend a lot of time around people.

Maybe... Once your depression and anxiety is more under control you might be able to enjoy going out, though.

I mean... I'm not quite sure what you mean by 'going out'. Do you go for walks? Do you go to the supermarket? Are you just talking about going out and spending a lot of time with people? People tend to vary with how much time they like to spend with other people. You said that all your life you have been struggling with trying to fit in. Struggling with that is anxiety provoking rather than fun so I understand why going out isn't something that you would find fun. Sometimes... Therapists can help us manage our anxiety and depression... And help us figure out who we are a little more. The kinds of things you like to do and stuff like that. If you go out with people who have similar interests to you then there can be a lot less of a struggle to try and fit in and a lot more fun!

That being said, I understand things a little from both sides... I really wouldn't find much benefit to seeing a t if they were really focused on changing me to what *they* think is best. On the other hand I'm not sure how much a t can support you in something if they really do think that your depression might be worse than it would be if you had more social supports (for example).

Quite often in life... I think there can be something of a middle ground.