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Originally Posted by BillHz60
A story about mirrors:
More then a year ago, in an effort to lift my spirits, my wife drew a cute picture on the mirror above my bathroom sink. It was sexy and provacative, and 6 days later, she asked me about it. "Did you find that funny?" "Did you find that cute?"
I hadn't seen it, though when I looked, it was obvioulsy apparant.
I can't look myself in the eye, and if you can't do that, you're one big, fat liar.
Self hatered is an unnatural act. I get that, and I understand that it is unappropriate. But I am light years away from self-love.
Light years....
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I feel you with this and totally get it. i don't either and I must at some point to come to terms with why I hate myself. For those things I have done by choice or not choice, i.e. letting it happen. I am so not there, not by a long shot.
Take things slowly, which you are and that is good. I know it sucks and it seems like why am I continuing to do this for so long. I get it. I don't have many answers. I can offer listening and comparing notes if you wish so to speak. maybe we could be sounding boards to each other, if you wish to PM me. I tend not to post really deep down things here as I have not seen where that is totally welcome or replied to and also cause it hurts just toooo damn much to do so.
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