Dearest Domino

Thanks for sharing ur feelings so sorry that I cant relate to you becoz am still single. And havent have a child..... mmm........ how bout ur family members your relatives , your parents are there living around ur area do you have close frens to talk to or neighbour ? while waiting for your husband and ur children to come home. I really felt its crucial to mix around with ppl even to have pet I really felt its a healing I have 3 beautiful dogs and I do play with them or write cards to encourage someone its really enlighten me. But dont forced urself everyone of us is different and special my way of coping may not be urs. Even sometimes despite of doing all these things I do feel extremely unmotivated tiredness spiritually mentally, emotioanally and physically when something triggers me that's where positive thinking came into picture. Its a constant battle that I need to fight currently am really struggle to go out to meet up with my christian frens becoz of halloween and during this period of time. I have a constant negative thoughts about those things but i've already shared it with my frens in the church. I did try to have positive thinking and tell all those voice to "shut up" and do something which is outwardly focus like online, i still go to church in the morning and on wednesday nite. today is a fruitful day to me that early in the morning I prayed, I tidy up my parent's and my bed , I do hse-work, I listened and dance, I play with my dogs, I make veges juice drink barley , I called someone and set time to pray on this wednesday and spend time Later if am well will write cards. But about those "thoughts" I really find it hard to get rid overall and felt fearful and I really missed my halloween celebration. sigh........... last time i really had a great time celebrating and won for best custume. hope this will not triggers u all

with love
carol