Last week (where I bolted) being the notable exception, I usually am glad I showed up anyway, even when I had to grit my teeth to keep my *** in the waiting room.

I have def cancelled in the past when I felt "too anxious or depressed" to go and, while I didn't regret it at the time, in retrospect I probably missed opportunities to learn things that would have been good for me. At one point I admitted to this and my therapist accused me of "cleaning up before the maid."

Did you say "I'm anxious", stopdog? I'm curious--how did she react?