I understand how you feel about your finals and how important they are to you, but are they more important than your life? What good are good grades if you are dead? I was faced with a very similar question last year about this time. It was the end of May and I was in a downward spiral of restricting big time. I think I went a few days with only a few bites of food and enough water to take my meds with. Anyway, I had just seen my pdoc and we were going to do a dose change and she wanted to do it in a fairly controled setting, which meant PHP (partial hospital program). I was game for that because I could still be home in the evenings. I had my daughter's dance recital that I was to be working backstage for the coming up weekend. I started PHP on a Wednesday and by Thursday I was told that I was going into the hospital the next day. They had already scheduled my intake. My weight was so low that they didn't know how I was getting around. I told everyone that I would go into the hospital the following Monday. I begged, pleaded, promised, did what ever I could so I could go to the recital. I had never missed a recital and didn't plan on missing this one. I was choosing to put my life on the line for a recital. Looking back I am glad that I did go into the hospital before the recital because I probably would have kept putting off going to the hospital. Something is always going to come up. There is always going to be a "...but I need to do this."

Maybe if your pdoc does think you need to go inpatient, you can arrange to take your finals while there. A lot of programs have school time for students. I hope that you get the help you need.

Yesterday I celebrated my 32nd birthday. To think that I almost didn't make it made yesterday even greater. Let us know what your pdoc says if you are able. I will be praying for you.