I feel my T can give me something, an indescribable something that I lack. I don't know what it is, but it's missing and in some kind of Wizard of Oz way I want my T to bestow it upon me. It's there when I look at him but I can't see what it is. I would like to ask him for a hug but I know he will say"no" or even worse, "What will it mean to you?"

I'm feeling lost in T lately, like we don't connect anymore. I'm seeing him at the end of the month to discuss EMDR again, but before I start that I feel I want this mysterious "something"

Thanks for reading my rant.