Thanks, catsrhelm. I must be. I tend to get confused as to why I feel like such crap when I'm taking a strong dose of an AD and in therapy. But am now beginning to realize that it might be that ADs are making things worse because they aren't the right treatment. When I look back on years of taking ADs, I realize that I usually feel really good for awhile when I start a new one and then begin to crash hard and fall apart. Then I say, "this AD doesn't work anymore" and get a new one. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat...I've taken them all. Ugh, I'm disgusted with myself.