It does help me to go. Not so much the session, but the fact that I acknowledge that it is something inside me that's making it feel like a bad idea to go. I'm not being affected by outside forces, I am doing something inside that I need to adjust so that it is not a bad idea to go.

Plus I'll happily go and talk about how I don't want to be there and why. T is always willing to discuss that with me. It's actually an offshoot of one of my issues - I have trouble being vulnerable and sharing myself with other people, particularly when I'm not feeling strong. I need to learn to do that. Which kind of sounds like it sucks , but I'm willing to try. I have nothing to lose.