I have been packed all week waiting for a bed on the Psyc Unit where I having been going for 12 years. This is the only one my insurance covers 100%.

Early yesterday I sent a message to my PDOC to ask If one opened he replied no. I then put my phone on the charger.

About 4 hours later he sent a message, he did not call, one opened but come ASAP. I did not get the message till 3 hours later because my phone was in the other room and I wasn't expecting anything from him. 10 minutes after this MSG he sends if you don't take this bed don't bother me anymore or ask about beds. Again this was a MSG not a phone call which I would have heard.

My husband must have had a hard day at work. He was home for a bit then started verbally abusing me out of the blue. I told him to stop and he threw a magazine and hit me in the head. He said if I had a baseball I would knock you out.

I froze up inside and said nothing because he was in a rage.
I wake up early about a half an hour before him. He started in with the verbal abuse again this morning. I went to my bedroom and shut the door and waited for him to leave.

I will admit all morning I have been thinking about ending my life
Because I see no way out. I can't call my PDOC he doesn't want to be bothered. I am so depressed and anxious it is hard to think about options and I don't have energy to do anything about my situation.