I wanted to thank you for this beautiful post Angela. Especially the part where you said

"I am who I am and as cracked and twisted as I’ve become while I’ve aged, I know that I am still that kind gentle girl that started this life so many years ago. The core of who I am have never changed and I will continue to wake up every day and keep moving forward to discover something else. "

I often wonder where that little girl i used to be went and how i got to be so "cracked and twisted" as you say so it is a great thing to try to keep in mind that the core never changed and that i can go on to add more positive things to that core. to dig it out again and polish it off maybe? it feels unrealistic but your words hit home and i ll try to remember them.

"If I was to give anyone advise, who is going though their own personal hell, I would say never give up. I know it sounds as trite as a silly bumper sticker, but in those few words are a cornucopia of wisdom. Life moves forward and with a little effort, things will change. As painfully slow as the process may seem during your time of sorrow, there is always a new tomorrow where you can try again. When you find yourself walking in hell, keep walking. "

Thank you also for this. Every time i hear someone say to keep going its like a little boost of encouragement that i add to my stockpile to remember next time it feels so pointless. And you have said it so gracefully.

Im glad that you keep walking and that you have shared this. i hope you continue taking care of yourself.

biiv