Thanks all for responses, not sure how to "quote" everyone so let me just kinda go down the list lol.

@pink&grey you're probably right. I just can't for reasons I can't really say.

@deark_heart_x I should go get my eyes checked! Maybe, though i'm not optimistic about it, because sometimes the visuals turn into letters... and lets not go into that much more. lol.

Also I would totally agree that it might be ocd, except that its not a normal thing. I just started this a week or so ago. (when I started experiencing all this bullsh**t I thought I'd left behind.)

@middlepath me too i don't have the expertise to do it myself yet, but that's what i'm in college for.

@Cocosurviving I'm sorry if I didn't post clearly, i only have one diagnosis, depression was misdiagnosed. just Schizoaffective -bipolar type. I've been told its akin to schizophrenia + bipolar, with the possibility of psychosis without mood swings (while in a "stable state).