t calls me today after i left him some messages. i told him he didnt have to call me back. he never calls me back. he called me back. said he was worried about me. says my mood sounds elevated. tells me to be careful. what the hell kind of advice is that? i feel as if i am spinning out of control and he tells me to be careful. his call only made me worry more that he is worried about me. grrrrr.....i want to gamble and smoke and spend and run amok. the last thing i want to do is whole up at home and be a good little girl.