Hi Lovefreak, and thank you for sharing. I have a similar situation. Im 41 and married to a 36 year old wonderful sexy bipolar man. Our sex life is absolutely wonderful since the first day we met 6 years ago, one to two times a day, until he has an episode then we would miss a day. We enjoy "rough" sex as well. However, a few months ago I used his phone and saw porn on his phone. I asked him and he said it was downloaded or there "accidentally". I don't mind the porn but I was hurt he lied to me.