I think my T and I have finally come to a point where we understand each other and I can trust her. She b!$#5ed at my pdoc for being an a**hat. They're not going to mess with my meds during finals, so the'll wait until after that to do stuff. My T also wants to know if my being manic was a product of me or my meds (still not officially dxed bipolar, but she said that certainly am if the meds didn't cause it). We still haven't talked about past abuse stuff in a long while, but I guess right now the present is more important. And also, apparently abilify is supposed to help with my ED.

To get stabilized (or at least close to it), I had to take a zyprexa. Now it's making me uber hungry all the time. But at least can sleep and don't think I'm superhuman anymore.