Hi Nessaea,
Thank you for posting this. It was useful for me to read it. I feel the same. In addition to my depression, I use a wheelchair and recently I moved to a country that has very little accessibility. My days are full of obligations it is difficult to take time for myself, but, also, I fear each time I need to start the process of finding a good doctor because of all the issues with transport, etc ( I mean, i need to visit a couple of them till I find one I like). I have very little energy, sometimes I would do nothing if I could. In fact, I have been a full day in be a couple of times, lastly. So, a couple of friends (whom I told I need to find a psychiatrist) first thing they ask is "have you gone to a psychiatrist"? I just want to respond: "Please, leave me alone".