I know I committed to stay safe over the weekend until I see my T again on Monday, but I keep wanting to give in... so I push my limits and sit with it but not use it... the draw is so great... how does anyone do this by themselves? I miss having the support of available staff when my head gets in this space. I don't want to be back in the hospital, but I am not the most reliable person when it comes to self-control with this... just have to make it until Monday...

hugs and peace to all who are struggling... I wish us all strength to get through this... it sucks.