I love your imagery!! Ativan as skittles, lol I almost yelled at my pdoc years ago - what are these sugar pills??!! She said ok we're going to try something called klonopin instead haha.

You're not through yet, you've got a lot of kutzpah lady. I'm so sorry you had the breakdown (I had one too not too long ago). But hopefully this short mandatory vacay gave you time to decompress and get back in the game. Keep on keepin on