[QUOTE=LucidLucy;3027398]My recurring, unproductive and destructive mantra since being diagnosed has been "why couldn't I have known sooner?".

My life was such a struggle, so much pain for me and my family. If I had only known .........."

Mine too Lucy, i *so* wish i had known sooner, to spare pain, struggles & grief but it doesn't get me anywhere now or change the past. At least I now know that even though I passed this to my kid, it was also passed to me from my father, and upward through the family tree...

I do think that we have unique gifts others don't, along with the struggles.

Miguel'sMom - you have been such a calm in my own storm. Let me know if I can help.