Im bipolar, pdoc thinks its bp1 but isnt totally certain yet. I was put on lamictal but it took away my personality, gave me memory loss, and constant suicidal thoughts. pdoc didnt seem bothered and said i would get used to it. i decided to come off it. now i feel great, but sometimes i feel both great and terrible at the same time. i feel excited, i want to do stuff, taste things, basically get out there and live. When im on meds, i dont feel like that, im much more patient, and sensible but tbh why would i want to be patient and sensible when i have the gift of bipolar? What do u think?