I believe my dad SAd me, but I lack specific memories. I know I was abused by another child when I was about five, and by a cousin when I was eight or nine.

On Friday, I went to my parents' house as they're away at the moment and I was looking for... I don't know what. Clues, or memories, or something. I had a look through some stuff from my childhood and found this book of stories and pictures I'd written and drawn. All the stories were about people escaping, running away, hiding and/or being eaten. And in the middle of it, I found this really weird drawing.

I was about nine or ten when I drew this. It doesn't relate to any of the stories I wrote, so I have no idea what it means. I just feel like I need to show someone. I don't know, I just can't help thinking this isn't a normal sort of picture for a nine or ten-year-old girl to draw, is it? Wouldn't you worry if you saw this?

I guess I'm looking for proof that things weren't right in my life. I'm sorry if it's not okay to post this.

Scroll down for the picture - it's basically of a hand with big black fingernails and in red letters with blood dripping it says 'your heart or your brain'. I have no idea what it actually means.