...yeah, because if I look better, I'll feel better and participate better. It's a Saturday night work-free, I'm young and into music and all that, yet every weekend I look in the mirror and think - " I can't possibly go out looking like this"

...I've got a work do tonight that started at 19:30, so to give me time, I sent a text saying I couldn't make it till after nine, just so that I drink enough booze to delude myself into going out and not caring until tomorrow morning where I'll just crash in bed, praying that nobody took photos or remember anything I did or said and self-care until I drag myself to work on Monday keeping my head down and away from office chatter.

If I looked just normal, I would of been there at seven, happy and carefree.

Let's not move the topic away from the original thread though please...