I moan on and on about a part of life that I dislike, I blow it out of proportion. I say things that I would rather kill myself if I knew I could never change. And I say these for attention, to get people to feel sorry for me, so they can sympathize with me. I have never had a loving or close relationship with anyone or anything. I do it also in the hope of gaining advice, but I never take this advice on board, I complain so much more whatever anyone says in the hope that I can "win" the argument with them if they confront or question me online in regards to what I say. I do it on purpose, to wear them down, in the then when I don't get advice. I do it over and over again, I ignore everything the say and the complain when I wear them down. I try it on with others. I don't take the advice, constantly whining on here. I don't expect to change anytime soon. I shouldn't complain, because I do nothing about the situation, but then again I do because there's nothing else to do. It's like I'm doing all of this on purpose, to annoy, or make people angry.