to go inpatient? I have backed out of treatment many times in my life. My current T is recommending inpatient and I am completely against, mostly out of fear, not feeling safe and refusal to give up control. I also don't feel fully committed and think I would go through the whole production and upheaval of being admitted, only to back out in day or two or three in, so I think, why go if one knows they aren't committed to recovery?

I've lost all social interaction
Had this ED for almost 25 years
Engage in behaviors everyday..
It dominates my every waking moment
I have health effects that I ignore
Therapy doesn't stop the behaviors

And yet...I can't ever conceive of letting myself get that kind of intensive treatment ...forget the logistics of how it would interrupt my life, I've just never felt I could turn the disease over to a group of strangers.


What motivated or let you feel safe to go IP?