I have had depression for 30 some yrs. now. This depression is with me all the time I understand some people that have it will not have it everyday but mine is here everyday. I have tried numerous meds with side effects to only have to go off of them with more side effects it is like a merry go round oh yes & also numerous hospital stays. I am at the end of my rope with only wanting some peace & happiness & relief. I do not know what else to do? Has anyone else been like this where there is nothing left to try? What does a person do?