Dear T, I know this depth work is necessary and in the long run is worth it. It just really hurts to be in the midst of it again. Thank you for being that container that you talk about, I'm finally starting to understand what you mean. I don't think I could explain it to anyone, but I do get it now. I'm hurting tonight and I want to talk to you sooner than Wednesday. But I also can see how much MORE I'd be hurting tonight without you. I'll wait until Wednesday. I know you say when I ask for an extra session I'm not bothering you but I can't help but feel like I am. So I'm not gonna.