So this appears to be pretty much over.

Now the big question. How do I say "no" when he leaves me a voice mail crying and begging for me back?... This is going to be nightmarishly difficult. I love him like a lover and a brother and seeing him hurting like that. I just ughhh I get dragged and let him in.

Yet, he's been sketchy with these random men on Facebook too. Suggesting we have threesomes with people he adds. And when I say I'm not interested, he doesn't remove them and that's scary. What's scarier is that he says he doesn't talk to them, but won't remove them because it's a long process. Absolute rubbish... I've deleted a ton of people over the years. 3 clicks and that's all.

That's my baby... the one that I walked through the forest with, held hands with and was proud to call my own. And I could see the same feeling in his eyes too. It wasn't always a joyride but he's because selfish monster now. Sorry... it's hard to believe that.