Im bipolar, pdoc thinks its bp1 but isnt totally certain yet. I was put on lamictal but it took away my personality, gave me memory loss, and constant suicidal thoughts. pdoc didnt seem bothered and said i would get used to it. i decided to come off it and now my moods fluctuate alot and i do things with less thought, but often things i really want to do like i bought some weights and signed up for a college class.

without meds i want to do stuff, taste things, basically get out there and live. When im on meds, i dont feel like that, im much more patient, and sensible and see life as long and as tho no decision needs to be made today. without meds im mostly on a high or mixed. What do u think about bipolar without meds? is it possible to live like that?