Nicoleb, I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I have my own problems with doctors. However, I see you have children. That is such a blessing!! I know you realize that but I just want to say, they are reason enough for you to press on and fight as long as you can to stay on this earth. Every day is meaningful to them to have their mother near no matter how you are affected by your illness. Just seeing them everyday must bring you great joy. Please remember, they feel that way about you too. I know it sounds cliche but living for the moment is all you have when battling illness. Doctors don't always know how long anyone has. Who knows? Maybe a new medication will come out soon. If not, you have today to see your kids. Best wishes & prayers go out to you.