umhh. i don't know where to start, but i just wanna say it's been a while when i keep on having suicidal thoughts. when i get depressed i easily think of killing myself just to be free. there are times like i wanted to know how it feels to stab myself in the stomach. and when i'm sitting near the door of a car, i feel like opening or jumping. although i never tried anything yet. i don't know what to do anymore. nobody knows about it. please help? or just tell me how to get rid of this thoughts. but please don't tell me to talk to someone i know coz that will never happen. i don't like talking to people when it comes to what i really feel.