Wow, she is moving so fast (Lola)
This must be so hard for you I am so sorry that this is happening. I am wondering if she is wanting you to fight for her or something. After so many years it just feels so rushed on her part. Given that she never liked to be alone, I imagine she is struggling with your new job. Maybe she feels that you have left her in a way. Whatever is going on in her head, I care about you and want you to be happy. What is it that you want for the future? I have to say that never in a million years would I have ever believed that all of the mess that led to me divorcing was a good thing, but I am actually so much happier and healthier without ex than I ever was with him. It wasn't until he was gone that I realized how bad things were. I am not saying that this is like your situation at all, just that sometimes a fresh start isn't the worst thing in the world. Sorry, seem to have rambled on there. Just want you to do what's best for you and be happy.