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The many yrs of virginity and staying inside is the symptom of the disease / disorder.... What are YOU actually trying to HIDE from?

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Well, where to begin...

#1 Fear of rejection.
#2 Fear of women, mostly born from my mother who was a BD mistress.
#3 Hatred of self, born from abuse in high school from peers.
#4 Bad self image. Big, fat, ugly... you name it.
#5 Hated of humanity, an defensive measure to deal with above issues.

So, I find it better to live in the virtual world. Where I can not be me, and I can control what happens around me.

Besides, what do you care whether I live or die? Get off about trying to be a hero or something, to compensate for your own shortcomings?

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Ok - I am backing OFF and will not try to give any more advice, because from my side of the fence it does not seem as though you are ready for the help or for straight forward help / caring heart of another person that does not know you personally in real life..... I am SORRY!!

Please take care and try to believe that many here on PC do indeed care for the other members for we too have been hurt, sacred and abused, therefore, we understand.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))