basically you can say im an addict, i plan on stopping because I want the real thing...since watching porn for so long side note I look at girls in public, but when i get the sense they are looking back at me I go into bipolar mode because I get angry at them saying to myself wheres your boyfriend or if you have one you should be with me.... or knowing that if she is interested in me because shes looking at me then im thinking to myself she has had other guys before me im sure of it a girl like that with boobs damn......and mainly because I did not feel good about myself back when I was in middle school because I was about say 240, now I weight about 175. guess I need bipolar meds so i wont feel bipolar when im around them...