Don't you think it's probably because of your Grandma's death and the fact you didn't get to say goodbye? You didn't say that you had this BEFORE she died, so I have to think that this must have something to do with it. Obviously, you feel that if you're not home, something terrible is going to happen ~ and you won't be able to do anything about it. So while you're gone, you feel you have no control. But actually you have no control when you're home either. These things are going to happen regardless of where we are.

While we have control of our own lives, we don't have control over anything that happens to anyone else.

I wish you the very best. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee