Hello. I feel terrible, all the time. It feels like I am walking around in a dream all the time. I can't shake it off. After several years of these symptoms gradually increasing, I finally saw a psychotherapist about a year ago. I've been seeing him as well as a psychiatrist for the past year. I haven't really improved, and I can't explain how I feel. I'm just out of it, all the time. It's almost impossible to have conversations with even the people I am closest to because it feels strange. Something is off. I can't hold eye contact with myself in a mirror because I get a really weird feeling when I try to. I have fleeting moments where I will feel at peace, or a little more "normal." But they don't last long at all. My psychotherapist and psychiatrist have both told me several times that I am absolutely not going crazy, but I can't help but think I am sometimes. I was convinced I was becoming schizophrenic at this point last year. Absolutely convinced. They have relieved some of my anxiety in that area, but sometimes I still feel like I am going to lose it one day. Not "do" anything crazy, I just feel like I will lose my mind and not be able to function anymore.

I don't feel in control. I feel a little numb to emotions and it has killed my relationships with people. I feel like I need a break from life, but I don't have time for that. I don't know what to do. I can't concentrate on anything. For example I'm in college, and right now I'm trying to study for final exams but I can't focus on it at all.

I would appreciate any advice or suggestions. Thanks.