Its not weird at all! I see it as a symbol of empowerment, taking back what was savagely taken from you, and that was and IS rightfully yours, to give to whom YOU choose. There is power in that train of thought, your power.

Don't worry about bf's, virginity and sex. Why?

1. You wouldn't date someone that stupid and insensitive.

2. You ARE a virgin. You've never had sex with anybody.

( Remember that rape is the act of violence not sex)

The way I see it, your surgery is part of your path to healing, and you want to have your hymen repaired, and so you should. I think you "deserve" a hymen, I think it will be good for your self-esteem, maybe that makes me weird? but I honestly only see good things coming from this decision.

I know you don't know me from a bar of soap, and hope I didn't speak out of turn, but I feel strongly about my response and hope you will receive it in the manner that was intended

Many hugs to you, I admire your strength and resillience and wish you well with your surgery