Im not a very depressed person. Im more neurotic than anythin. But here these last couple of years, Im getting these episodes of depression & they are beginning to become more frequent and more intense. They are lasting longer, also. I dont see anything good about my life or my future. I stay in such anxiety & emotional & physical pain. It really brings me down. My sisters both have these great jobs. They own their own houses. And they both suffer from anxiety disorders. But they are outgoing & have friends. I can barely leave my house for agoraphobia & severe pain.

I dont know how to live with this. For years it has held me back. I just cant seem to get to the other side of this. I feel sad all the time. I dont have an appetite or any desire to do anything. At all. Ive been invited to two parties & a wedding. Used to, I would be so excited to do that, but I really dont care. The only feelings I seem to feel these days are apathy, sadness & anger. I dont know what to do. I feel like Im falling apart. Mabye I am.