Appreciated the advice from you. I take each day as it comes now and improvement is on its way. I think of all that I have been thorough and think of my son and I get strength from that too. Life is short to think of all the bad in the past and I look forward to the birth of our granddaughter soon. It helps to express my thoughts this way. I do have a couples diaries from the past which I am going to get rid of because my life is better now. No one in my family knows how I feel and if I ever actually had a conversation . My family is great but they have their own families. I grew up where the baby boomers stayed married and when I was in school I want no career except to get married,.. I do have a degree and did go to college but I always dated the wrong guy according to my parents. But my marriage did turn out ok now. My spouse did change too and he is welcomed in my family as of last 10 yrs. I always had issues with my Mother,she being domaining one. My Dad was so soft hearted and great. But I wish to say thank for all your help in letting me go on and on. I like this site.
Cathy56