(((Granite))) You sound like a kid with some very normal behaviors that showed distress. I wish someone had been aware enough to see it and help you. I have several friends who teach elementary/secondary school, and they all tell me that those reports are all about telling parents what they want to hear. If they disagree strongly with how a parent sees their child, it just opens up a lot problems which, in many cases, will come back to haunt the teacher. That's why I see a contradiction in her reports and what she wrote to your mother.

Your T isn't going to blame you for being a child. It's understandable that you'd be afraid of that because of the horrible humiliating experience your family subjected you to. But I really can't imagine it happening with your T. Be careful that you don't twist her words in your head to punish yourself.