I'm not sure if I'm just repeating a cycle of using this technique the workbook describes as redirecting my focus from my emotions to calm my anxiety , what I seem to have been using all my life . I always 'redirected' when things got emotional , yes it did calm me down but I found myself using 'redirecting' as an escape I got caught up in. I ended up living in those fantasies and redirecting my focus so much I would be where I was physically, but mentally my emotions were in safekeeping. I didn't come back from redirecting of my emotions then, I escaped. Sitting here going back into time ...I can say with a certainty , I see now this is how I dealt with my abuse , then carried it into my adult life . I'll be damned , this makes some sense