Thank you so much for replying everyone Makes me feel more welcome. I've been on the site for years now but not a full on poster, kind of a lurker but not in the creepy sense lol.

The visit was better than the last, probably because I didn't have to pour out 29 years of my life basically. I had notes and mood and sleep charts which I was reluctant to give her. I burnt my journals years ago because I never wanted anyone reading them so having the trust to read into my brain was hard.. If that makes sense?

She agreed straight up to not put me on a med that will make me gain weight as it will just increase my b/p which is the cycle I've been stuck in the past few months. I'm starting Abilify tonight, I'm pretty nervous about it all as the only other antipsychotic I've had is Seroquel, well minus the one time on Saphris that was HORRIBLE.

So I'm sitting here waiting to take my 1/4 of 5mg (starting me slow as I'm med sensitive) and see how it goes.