omg thanks for all the suport guys. i read this and it accually feels like i coul do this .it really does .that in the end my T wouldnt hate me or think i am a completely disgusting person .but i sewar 10 min after i read this i am back to being terrified about it all and i am not even in her office. i know i will bring in the cards just incase i feel brave (who knows) but i am terrified about those stupid records.

the bigg thing about what bothers me about these reports is that she talked about my bad conduct .that means behavior. or in her words are conduct that leaves much to be desired... and about my talking .i hate the fact that i ever talked even if in 2ed grade .i don't want my T to ever know that. I have never bothered to talk to people or interacted with them (unless nessisary) for as long as i can remember. it was a good thing . i feel so exposed with that. to me talking is a horrible thing it always has been or at least it seemed to be to me.