Hello. I have signed up to this community only because things have started to go extremely spiral for me.

Let me start off by saying that I have severe imagination problems. I have my own world in my head. I've hardly ever had real friends. Since I was young I would imagine myself as an outgoing person(I was and still am shy.)
That's how it all started. Later it developed into other stories and characters. All the stories we're random. Some we're about me, some we're about other people(People I made up.). I would spend all day imagining it all in my head. These imaginations became my world. I always thought that the imaginations couldn't go anymore rapid, but I was wrong.
Nowadays I have lost track of reality. Almost all day I stay at home imagining my life away. It's getting worse by the month. I've tried to change myself but I can't. Maybe one of the reasons why I can't live without my imagination is because I had no friends to count on when I was young.
Now I am frustrated with myself. Everyday I'm depressed with myself that my life is such a fail. I want to be normal, have some friends, go out late at night and party like the rest of the people but I don't go on well with that. I'm frustrated and depressed about my way of life. I've even thought about suicide, if it would be the right option for me. I mean I have nothing worthwhile to live for. It's all in my head and it hurts so much. I don't know what's wrong with me but I don't think I can fix it anymore. I probably spend about more than 5 hours a day imagining stuff. I don't think I can live like this anymore. I'm frustrated with my life.