I can relate to being adopted and finding out about it later. It kinda rocked my world and I still don't know how to process it. My situation was strange though.

I'm sorry to hear about your bf. I am having releationshio problems too and it adds a lot of strain. I hope you can sort your life out and find out what is best for you.

I hope you find help in this forum or therapy or meds. I like your title for your post. I feel like that a lot.