Seventeen years ago, I met the man who I love with all my heart. Our first start only lasted 4 years, and we separated for about that long. we met back up and again started dating. we eventually got married. After 6 years of marriage and a lot of distrust, we were divorced.

Again we went our separate ways for a short time, about a year or so. And then again, yep you guessed it, we got back together again. It was fairly rough in the beginningas we both seemed a bit leary of this again. and took quite a few "time outs". After a brief timeframe we got back together again and actually moved in together. This only lasted 8 months before he decided we just couldn't live together.

What breaks my heart is this continual coming and going that he is doing. He knows how much I love him and how I will continuously take him back. He keeps telling me that things have to change between us if this is going to work. This coming from a man who told me he loves me, but has since become quite distant with me.

I cry on a daily basis, because AGAIN I have gotten my heart broken. I seem to be in this pattern that I cannot escape from. And whats worse, is I would gladly take him back in a heartbeat if he asked. My heart cannot take this anymore. What is his purpous for continually doing this to me. My Heart cannot take much more of this.