I am mad right now, the more I think about it the more angry I get.

For the last 12 years I've had therapists and psych docs convince me that I've got DID. For 12 years they tried to convince me that I had multiple personalities. Never once did they think "Well hmmm... Let's try and get some brain scans done first to rule out anything else" but it was always "You have DID"

Then I had my drop seizure in May. My therapist and psych doc convinced me they were psuedo seizures and I would never have another again. Said it's somewhat common for those with DID to experience psuedo seizures and I had nothing to worry about. And each session was spent him trying to pull any alters out. To get me to let them out as he called it. Convinced it was DID he started trying a form of hypnotherapy to get them out which only put me in a foggy out of it state. Then he starts to say "If your alters don't come out soon it's going to be hard to convince the pdoc it's not schizophrenia" and he kept on saying "You don't want schizophrenia but if I don't meet any parts I may have to tell her I think it's schizophrenia." And he's not the first person I've heard this from. And not the first person to diagnose me schizophrenic.

They all do, and they all claim DID. But I learned 3 weeks ago it's epilepsy and the 12 years spent in therapy with the wrong diagnosis made the epilepsy worse going so long untreated.

I've spent the last good chunk of my life thinking I was mentally ill in every way shape or form. But it was a medical condition and I'm angry that the 30-40 different psych docs I've met with throughout haven't noticed no meds worked and only made me worse and it wasn't DID but was epilepsy. A couple throughout said they thought it could be epilepsy but my t's at the time were saying "No way" and since I talked to them the most I figured they knew.

I had a t even med me up to try and make me dissociate. I was on high meds to open the door to dissociation and it made things bad. But she was determined to prove it was DID.

Do they get a prize or something for working with a DID patient? It seemed like everyone wanted it to be DID. I just wanted to know what it was.

Sorry if this is in the wrong section, it can be moved. I don't know which area to put it in

Sorry for the vent but ugh...