While I find it almost unforgivable that your parents didn't tell you until recently that you were adopted, you must remember that they CHOSE you -- you were most DEFINITELY WANTED!!! You weren't an "oops" like so many of us, me included. I wasn't planned -- my parents weren't "ready" for me, or perhaps even wanted. All they told me was that I was an "oops." But YOU were chosen, my friend and desperately wanted! For that, you can be grateful. As far as your birth parents, perhaps you can find out now. Records are open, unless it was done thru a church, in which case they are most often kept closed. Did you have a happy childhood? Were your parents good to you? Did they show you love and attention? If so, do you REALLY want to find your birth parents? You also must remember that many times when you DO find your birth parents, it does NOT come out like you had hoped.

And your boyfriend ~ Thank god you have only 4 months invested in this relationship. It doesn't sound like MUCH of a relationship to me. He sounds quite selfish -- quite self-centered. Maybe this is all of a sudden, and if it is, perhaps he's showing you the "real" him because you voiced your concerns to him. Is this something you hadn't done before? If this is the first time you'd actually mentioned any concerns you had about the relationship, he probably decided to show you who he REALLY was, instead of staying in the "honeymoon" period. I doubt you'll want to stay with someone like that. I think I'd just call it quits, and move on to something/someone else. Like I said, all you have is 4 months in this -- not very long.

As for your workplace, at least you have your feelers out to another job. Keep sending resume's out. You can stand it long enough until you find another job. I'm SURE you'll find one. Just try to de-stress yourself. Stop worrying about this so-called relationship, cause it's really not there. Concentrate on your schooling, and get thru that the best you can! That's where your future lies. The rest is all fluff.

God bless you my friend, and take care of YOU. Keep us informed as to how things are going! Hugs, Lee